[Yeager shifts a little again, like he's not entirely sure what to do with any of that - frankly, he wants to drop this topic of discussion immediately despite the fact that he was the one who brought it up. It's still incredibly difficult to talk about, but the fact that he's still here likely says something. Raven's been patient with him while he works himself out with regards to this so he can... try. That's the best he can offer.
It takes him awhile, but eventually Yeager speaks, eyes fixed on some point on the floor.]
He didn't—
[No. No, that's not right.]
...I didn't blame you for that. I wasn't angry at you, for not being with us.
[It doesn't change anything. Alexei still blames himself, and nothing is going to change that. But it's something he wants to say - needs to say, maybe. Because this whole time he's been blaming Alexei for all sorts of things, and at the very least it's important he knows that this isn't one of them.]
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It takes him awhile, but eventually Yeager speaks, eyes fixed on some point on the floor.]
He didn't—
[No. No, that's not right.]
...I didn't blame you for that. I wasn't angry at you, for not being with us.
[It doesn't change anything. Alexei still blames himself, and nothing is going to change that. But it's something he wants to say - needs to say, maybe. Because this whole time he's been blaming Alexei for all sorts of things, and at the very least it's important he knows that this isn't one of them.]
I'm... sorry we couldn't return to you.